Some songs feel like they arrive from a place I’ve carried for years, even before I had the words. This one is like that.
I wrote it out of the way I’ve moved through the world after trauma—always on guard, mistaking control for safety. For a long time, I thought that was living, but the truth is I was only living a half-life. Writing these lines was a way of naming that, of finally putting words to something that has shaped me more than I realised.
It may not be the most accessible song I’ve ever written, but that’s alright. Not every song is meant to be easy. Some are just meant to be honest. And maybe, in that honesty, someone else will recognise a piece of their own story too.
You can read the lyrics and listen to it here.